Category: Spiritual Thoughts

These posts are more focused on religious experiences, thoughts and tips.

  • The War in Heaven

    The War in Heaven

    This week we had a family home evening lesson about birthdays as we’re entering birthday season in our household (Eric’s birthday was yesterday, his dad’s birthday is on Friday, Sam’s birthday is on Monday and Daniel’s will be in April).  The lesson pointed out that part of having a birthday is that we’re celebrating the decision we made in the pre-existence to come to earth and get a body.  It made me think of something that I learned in one of my religion classes that made me think differently about the whole war in heaven.  One of my religion professors (I can’t remember which one any more, I think it was Brother Bott) pointed out to our class a couple things that I’d never thought of before.  One was that when we talk about the War in Heaven we often talk about Jesus’ plan vs Satan’s plan.  But my teacher pointed out that the plan that Jesus was promoting wasn’t His plan, it was Heavenly Father’s plan – Jesus was just promoting what Heavenly Father had asked us to do.  The other thing he pointed out is that when we were choosing sides in the War in Heaven, it wasn’t a vote.  Even if every single one of Heavenly Father’s children had chosen Satan’s plan we still wouldn’t have done that plan.  Because Satan’s plan couldn’t work.  The only way for us to get back to Heavenly Father’s presence was for us to come here to earth and make choices that would return us to live with Him again.  Choosing Satan’s plan would be like us saying – we should all get to become awesome Michael Phelps-esque swimmers, but we don’t want to have to practice or eat right or do any of those things, we just want to show up at the Olympics.  Even if we all voted that it was a good plan, none of us would arrive at the Olympics as amazing swimmers.  It’s a nice idea, but it wouldn’t work because we wouldn’t have put in the work to become those amazing swimmers.  It’s the same way with Satan’s plan.  He was saying, “We should all become like Heavenly Father, but we shouldn’t have to do the kinds of things He did to get to where he is, we should just all go, get bodies and that’s all we really need to be like Heavenly Father.”  It’s a nice idea, but it wouldn’t work.  We needed the experiences we would have here to learn and grow and become like Heavenly Father – we were missing a lot more than just bodies.

    Somehow before that I’d always thought of it as a democracy.  The war was that we wanted it one way, they wanted it another way and we were fighting so that our plan would win.  But as we learned this I realized that Satan’s plan was no plan at all.  What we were fighting for was just for the opportunity to come here and get bodies and have this experience.  I’m sure that even if only one spirit had wanted this opportunity Heavenly Father would have provided it for them, but we were fighting for our brothers and sisters to come and do the same.  The war wasn’t to see who would get the most votes, it was to see who would stand up for the right and come to the earth.  Brother Bott also pointed out that in the scriptures it says that “a third part” of the hosts of heaven followed Satan, and not as we usually think of it 1/3 of the hosts of heaven.  He hypothesized that maybe rather than actually 33.3333% of the hosts of heaven it was that we were split into three factions – those who chose Heavenly Father’s plan, those who chose Satan’s plan, and those who were on the fence.  The war was for those who hadn’t made up their mind to get them to one side or the other.  An interesting thought.  I don’t know that it changes my concept of the war in heaven as much, but it is interesting to think that either way it wasn’t a vote of 2:1 that gave us the opportunity to come to this earth and gain bodies, but choosing the only side that could give us that opportunity.

  • You Are Not Alone

    You Are Not Alone

    Last night I was reading in the Old Testament and came across a passage that I found very interesting. I was reading in 1 Kings about Elijah. After he performed his great miracle of having a wet sacrifice consumed by fire he by the Lord, he is left alone, fleeing from Queen Jezebel who desires his life. The following exchange happens between Elijah and the Lord. In verse 4 Elijah “… requested for himself that he might die; and said, It is enough; now, O Lord, take away my life.”  After all that has happened Elijah feels that he has done enough and is ready to call the game finished. Further along in verse 14 we gain some more insight as to why – “I have been very jealous for the Lord God of hosts: because the children of Israel have forsaken thy covenant, thrown down thine altars, and slain thy prophets with the sword; and I, even I only, am left; and they seek my life, to take it away.” He says he has left all alone, that there aren’t any followers of the Lord left and there obviously is nothing left for him to do in the Kingdom of Israel. This seems reasonable, at this point what is left for him to do, he’s been standing up to the King and Queen of Israel who want him dead and no one else has been standing by his side. However in verse 18 the Lord tells him “Yet I have left me seven thousand in Israel”. What a difference between Elijah feeling like he’s the only one left and the Lord telling him that there are 7000 people in Israel who have been faithful followers of the Lord this whole time!

    This passage impressed me. How often do we feel alone or abandoned, thinking maybe what we’re doing has no value or will never be enough? I think more than ever at these times we need to turn to the Lord and realize that we are not alone. Even if it seems we’re the only one fighting for the right, we need to realize that there are likely thousands of others who are quietly living out their own lives of devotion and that we are not alone.

  • The Miracle of the Cody Muffins

    The Miracle of the Cody Muffins

    Today my brother Cody enters the Missionary Training Center for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints to begin his two year mission preaching the gospel in Spanish to the people in the area of Morristown, New Jersey.  I am so proud of him.  When he opened his mission call I made over 80 muffins in his honor.  Ever since I can remember my brother has had the nickname “Cody Muffin”, so making muffins for his mission call opening party seemed appropriate.  I don’t know why we call him Cody muffin, but the name stuck.  He even has a song that goes along with this nickname.

    Cody Muffin (sung to the tune of the Indiana Jones theme song)

    Cody muffin, Cody boy

    Cody muffin, Cody muf-fin boy

    Cody muffin, Cody boy

    Cody muffin, the muffin, the muffin of boy

    Yes, we’re very creative lyricists in my family 😛  As he was playing basketball in high school this nickname spread as they called him “The Muffin Man” and we’d joke about “Do you know the Muffin Man?”  But the nickname itself isn’t what I wanted to write about.  As I was making several dozen muffins for my brother I realized that me baking muffins for Cody is nothing short of a miracle and I wanted to share with you the miracle of the Cody muffins.

    When my mom was pregnant with Cody she started having severe pain in her stomach when she was about 6 months along.  She went to her doctor a few times and the doctor couldn’t find anything wrong with her so he sent her home saying “Well Mrs. Anderson, pregnancy can cause pain sometimes.”  This rather ticked my mom off as this was her fourth pregnancy; she pretty well knew that pregnancy could cause pain, and that this particular pain was NOT normal.  Finally the doctors figured out that she had a kidney stone, and not just your regular run-of-the-mill kidney stone, but a stone that was about 1cm in diameter.  In terms of kidney stones that was a veritable boulder.  She couldn’t pass it normally and they couldn’t do anything about it surgically until after the baby was born.  So she was stuck for the last three months of her pregnancy with this extreme pain that they couldn’t do anything about.  They put her on codeine and bed rest for the last few months of her pregnancy.  We joke that Cody is so named for the codeine that made it so our mom could continue her pregnancy without dying in pain, but my parents insist they had liked the name before my mom was given the drug.  During that time my family was so blessed by our friends and neighbors who helped take care of us.  I remember there was one lady who would come over and make me a lunch to take to school every day.  I don’t actually remember if she came over every day or what but she would always make me a ham sandwich.  To this day I still don’t care for ham sandwiches and I attribute that dislike to an overabundance of ham sandwiches at that time.  But I now realize more clearly what a simple but incredible act of service that was for her to make my lunch every day so my mom could take care of herself at this time.

    Finally on 19 December 1993, Cody Allen Anderson was born, 3 weeks before his due date.  He had some difficulties at first so he was placed in the NICU until he was strong enough to come home.  After coming home my mom could tell that Cody had difficulties she hadn’t seen with her other children.  He would break out in hives and had a very difficult time breathing.  The doctor put him on Nutramagen, a special hypo-allergenic formula that was very expensive but kept Cody from having these reactions.  My mom knew he had allergies, but the conventional wisdom at the time was that people didn’t develop allergies until they were at least 2 or 3 years old, so my mom couldn’t even get a referral to an allergist from Cody’s doctor.  When they finally did get him in Cody was diagnosed with some severe allergies and asthma.  There were three things that Cody absolutely could not eat or he would need to be hospitalized almost immediately – eggs, milk and peanuts.  His airways would close up and he would go into anaphylactic shock.  My mom started having to carry around an epi-pen in case of any severe reactions and even though it was only the mid-90s, my parents were early adopters of cell phones so that they could be reached any time in case Cody had a reaction to something.  Cody was also more mildly allergic to a wide variety of other things – wheat, rice, soy, corn, grass, dust, mold… you name it.  In other people they would have considered these to be substantial allergies, but compared to his trifecta of anaphylactic allergies these were almost disregarded.  Feeding Cody was a very difficult task because so many basic things were off limits.  He ended up most of the time eating things that he *was* allergic to, but not as severely as the major allergies because there was so much off limits that it was hard to find something that worked.

    A good example of Cody’s allergies – for his first birthday my mom realized that she wouldn’t be able to make him a birthday cake.  So instead of cake she opted to make him some red Jell-o.  However if you look at the pictures of Cody’s first birthday you’ll notice he has dark circles around his eyes and some hives.  We found out that day that Cody was allergic to Red 40, a common dye in many foods.

    As the years went on we got used to living with Cody’s food allergies.  We became experts at reading food labels and knowing that dextrose meant that there was milk inside (this was before the advent of common allergens being listed out separately and clearly at the bottom of the labels).  One of our favorite Cody allergy stories happened when Cody was 4.  My mom found him walking around eating a peanut butter chocolate chip granola bar, an obvious choice for something Cody could NOT have (remember anaphylaxis for peanuts and milk?).  She told him to hand it over, that he couldn’t eat it, and Cody told her “Don’t worry mom, Zach checked the ingredients!”  Zach, of course, was Cody’s best friend, who was at the time 3 and obviously had no reading capabilities and certainly was not a qualified choice for an ingredient checker.

    Of course, being limited in what he could eat was difficult on his little growing body.  Despite having great athletic talents Cody wasn’t growing and developing as quickly or healthily as we’d have liked.  He was cheerful and a delight to be around, but he constantly had Benadryl in his system making him tired and not as capable as he would have liked.

    When Cody turned 8 he was baptized, as most children in our church are.  After the baptism our dad had the privilege of laying his hands on Cody’s head to confirm him a member of the church and give him the gift of the Holy Ghost.  At this time it’s also customary for the person performing the confirmation to give a blessing to the person who has just been baptized.  As my dad was giving this blessing he suddenly stopped speaking.  He had a really long pause and we all started furtively looking around the room wondering what was going on.  Then, my dad started crying and we were really wondering what was happening.  Then he pronounced in his blessing that the allergies that had plagued his body for so long would no longer affect him the way they had.  There was a collective jaw drop and a sort of stunned moment for everyone there.  Typically blessings of this magnitude are not part of a confirmation, usually more general knowing the love of our father in heaven, being a good example to siblings, maintaining righteousness etc.  Not that those aren’t awesome blessings as well, but they don’t have the same sort of effect.  Everyone in that room knew about Cody’s allergies, heck, pretty much anyone who had ever met Cody knew about his allergies and it was an incredible thing for him to have been blessed with.

    After the baptism day we all went home and pondered this declaration of healing.  It’s something we all knew and believed was possible, but not something we were expecting to witness that day.  Ironically, before the baptism I remember my parents discussing how they weren’t sure how prepared Cody was for baptism.  He’s not a super deep kind of guy, and that started from when he was pretty young.  What you get from Cody is pretty much all surface level.  Which isn’t a bad thing, I think what you get right there at the surface is pretty awesome, but he’s not one to go and sit and ponder on the things of the universe.  My parents weren’t totally sure that he’d done the sort of thinking about this choice as they thought it would merit.

    The next day was a fast Sunday and we agreed as a family that we would fast to figure out the meaning of this great blessing.  The blessing hadn’t been that he was completely healed of his allergies but that they wouldn’t affect him as they had.  So we all fasted the next day.  We decided that what we would fast for was that if what the blessing meant was that he really could eat just whatever he wanted that he would have a desire to eat the foods.  That might sound silly, a kid who has been refused these things all his life and we’re asking that if he *wants* to eat them that’s an answer?  But you have to understand, these foods could have killed him the day before.  Only a week or so previously he had accidentally touched some ranch dressing at a class party and despite having the dressing washed right off he had hives breaking out all up and down his body.  The idea of eating something like that was incredibly frightening.  It would be like wanting to eat ice cream laced with cynide.

    At the end of the day as we were breaking our fast Cody came up to my mom with a container of yogurt and asked my mom if he could eat it.  She asked him if he wanted to, which he said yes to and so she let him eat it.  I’d like to say that we all had perfect faith at that point and didn’t think too much of it, but the truth is that we all took mental note of where the epi-pen was, calculated how much Benadryl he would need and considered whether or not we should just hop in the car right away to go to the hospital.  But as we watched him with great trepidation… nothing happened.  We watched for the hives that we knew so well to break out – nothing.  We listened for his asthmatic breathing to get really bad – it didn’t.  We looked for any sign that we were wrong to have believed that this could happen – and we came up empty.  Cody truly had been healed in a way that can be described as nothing short of miraculous.

    Later Cody told my parents that as he was under the water being baptized he’d had the thought that if baptism could wash away his sins then it could wash away this trial from him as well.  We also found out that his sweet best friend Zach had been praying every night that Cody could get better from his allergies.  Oh the faith of little children!

    The few weeks following Cody’s baptism were nothing short of a celebration for those who knew what had happened.  That night we attended a baptism for a young woman who had recently converted to our faith.  Afterwards they had the traditional open house with different refreshments.  The mother of the young woman noted to a family friend afterwards, “There was a little boy there who looked so happy, you’d think he’d never had a cookie before in his life!”  Little did that mom know at the time, he really hadn’t had a cookie before in his life.  Different friends called dibs on taking Cody out for different firsts.  His first cheeseburger, his first ice cream, his first time eating scrambled eggs.  His descriptions for the different foods were mind blowing, things that we take so much for granted were a whole new world for him.  It was an incredible experience.

    In the years that have followed we’ve come to better understand why Cody was blessed that his allergies wouldn’t affect him the way they had rather than that he was completely healed.  While the foods that were so toxic to him before have diminished, there are still a very few things that can cause him the same distress as before, mainly almonds and walnuts.  He still has some minor asthma and is allergic to cats, but comparatively this is NOTHING when viewed in light of what his problems once were.

    So the miracle of the Cody muffins?  A few months ago I had the privilege of making muffins for Cody – with eggs, milk, flour and all kinds of things that once would have killed him – and he was able to eat them.  When Cody was younger the prospect of him going on a mission was pretty grim.  The chances of him ingesting something lethal and not getting the care he needed in time by the time he was 19 were extremely high.  But beyond that, how could someone with the difficulties he had go and spend most of his time outdoors among dust, pollens and molds while going door to door to preach the gospel?  How could he leave an environment where a very controlled diet kept him alive to go eat at the homes of different members eating whatever might come his way?  The little 8 year old Cody would have been disqualified from serving a traditional mission based on his health.  I cannot express what a great miracle I was blessed to witness and how grateful we are as a family for it.  I’m so grateful for and proud of my little brother – his faith, his personality and his commitment to serve.  We’ll certainly miss him, but he’s going to be a great missionary.

  • Attitude of Gratitude: 16 December 2012

    Attitude of Gratitude: 16 December 2012

    Recently I landed a contract at Adobe, working in the same department as my wonderful husband Eric.  When I was first applying for the job I thought I’d be doing one thing, when I interviewed for the job I understood that I’d be doing something else, and when I finally started the job I realized that it was something else entirely.  When I applied I had thought that I was signing on to make mostly cosmetic changes to a tool that was being built in house.  At the time of the interview I realized that there was going to be more building involved and PHP/MySQL kind of work.  During my first day at the office I found out that the tool was something that an intern had built, on a system I didn’t know at all, and the fixes were almost entirely functionality not design.  A job I am qualified for, but not what I had thought I was getting myself into.

    For the first few weeks of the contract I was trying to work from home in my spare time – my preferred M.O. for the websites that I build.  I am really proud to be a stay-at-home mom, I think I do the most important work here that I could do anywhere.  I have long been grateful to have skills that allow me to work from home so that I can both contribute to our family’s finances and stay at home with our kids.  However as I got further into the contract I found that the time I was spending was inadequate.  The system I am working with is incredibly complex and not something that I find to be intuitive at all.  On top of that, generally my time to work has been after putting my boys to bed, and my youngest son decided during this time that his bedtime was midnight, like mommy’s, instead of closer to 8pm or 9pm  like his brother.  Between those two things I was doing most of my work with a toddler running around and while very tired and it was taking me several days to resolve issues that seemed on the surface to be relatively simple.  I was tired, frustrated and very stressed.

    Finally I decided that I should consider going in to the office a couple of days each week, spending 8 solid hours working without distractions from my boys or housework and not worrying about my contract at all on the other days.  I went in to the office with Eric one day a couple weeks ago and felt somewhat guilty leaving my boys behind.  They were at home with my brother who they both love, and Sam basically watched TV all day (which he was of course thrilled about) so I knew they would be fine, but I worried about what I should be at home doing with them as their mother, and missing out on those hours with them.  However, in those hours that I spent at the office I got more done than I had in the previous week.  And when I went home, I wasn’t worried about when I was going to find the time to get work done on my contract, I was just there to be a mom and I didn’t need to worry about anything else.  It was really a liberating feeling.  Since then my brother-in-law has finished his finals and during his break we’ve arranged for a few days that he’ll bring his son over and come to watch my boys while I go into the office and that I’ll pay him a portion of what I earn for his time spent babysitting.

    As I was thinking about all that has transpired last night, I felt overwhelmed with gratitude.  I sat down and realized just how many blessings have come about because of this contract.  How things that I’ve prayed about, that seem to have no connection to my employment situation, are answered in this one little thing.  I thought I ought to sit down and write out some of these great and unexpected blessings and express my gratitude for them and additionally my testimony of the power of prayer.

    • First, I’m grateful that this opportunity wasn’t presented to me as what it actually was.  If I had known from the outset what I was getting myself into and that I would be put in a position that I’d have to even consider leaving my boys at home I wouldn’t have taken it.  All of the blessings I’m listing here came in disguise, and a really good disguise for awhile, but I’m glad that they were disguised so that I would take them.
    • I’m grateful for the extra money that this job is bringing in.  I’ve recently been really wanting to pay down more of our mortgage so that we can lower our payments a little, save money in the long run and just be in a more secure position financially overall.  We’ve also been wanting to save up for a minivan.  Just overall having extra money coming in is always helpful in reaching financial goals 🙂
    • I’m grateful that I’m getting out of the house regularly and interacting with other adults and doing something meaningful.  I’d been stuck in the house for so long and the change of pace has really improved how I feel about myself.
    • I’m grateful that because I’m leaving the house we can help support my sister and brother-in-law while he’s going through school.  He’s at home with their son most days anyways so it’s not too hard for him to take on a couple more little boys during the day.  The extra income will be helpful for them and my boys don’t even have to go somewhere else.  It’s a good position for everyone.
    • I’m grateful that it’s my brother-in-law coming over because my boys already like him and are comfortable with him, and he’s familiar with my boys as well.  Plus, my boys love playing with their cousin and it’s good for all of them to have the time to spend together.
    • I’m grateful for how this contract will help get our family on a better schedule.  Ever since we got married Eric and I have lived on weird schedules.  At first because he had 4am shifts, then because he had late night shifts and working international hours.  We’ve never really gotten off living on a weird schedule, and having kids that don’t sleep hasn’t helped.  But I think really we’ve been able to stay on that schedule because there wasn’t a great motivation to get us going anywhere in the mornings.  Eric’s work allows him to have a very flexible schedule which allows him to sort of mosey through getting ready in the mornings, which sometimes makes it later that he’s home at nights or up during the nights, it just generally keeps us on the wrong track.  I think since I’ll have someone coming over in the morning at a certain time and needing to leave in the evening at a certain time it gives us a deadline and will help get us in a routine.
    • I’m grateful that I get to spend more time with Eric.  We’re not very good at planning regular date nights and getting out of the house without kids, our Friday/Saturday nights generally consist of us hanging out on the couch watching TV.  Which is totally great, I’m not a high maintenance kind of girl as far as dates go.  But it’s been nice that on the days I’ve gone in we’ll generally go grab lunch at the on-site Café and have the time together just driving in, walking to and from our desks etc.  I’ve just appreciated getting to be with Eric more as just us and not as Mom & Dad.
    • I’m grateful for the opportunity to better understand Eric’s roles at work and the people he’s working with.  It really makes it a lot easier to understand what he has to say when we’re talking about his work as I’m getting to know more of the people he knows and understand all of the overall structure of the company etc.
    • I’m grateful that this is helping Danny be less attached to me.  This week Danny finally got himself weaned!  He’s 20 months so it was definitely time for him to do so.  I think that not having me around during the days, getting used to taking naps without the option of being nursed and the extra stimulation that he gets from new people has helped him be able to go to sleep at night without the comfort of “moo”.  This is especially appreciated since Eric and I have been planning a trip in early January and I wasn’t feeling good about leaving an unweaned baby with someone else.
    • I’m grateful that work is now done at work, and mom stuff is being done at home.  It of course has made me a better employee to have that focused, dedicated time to work on my work projects, but even more so it’s helped me be a better mom.  When I’m home I’m not scrambling to see if I have time to get work done as well, I can just be a mom.  This is definitely a huge plus!
    • I’m grateful that now that I’m not working late at night I can (theoretically) go to bed earlier.  If nothing else, I can go to bed on time without the guilt of having unfinished work!  I think that this is definitely going to help me be less exhausted all the time.
    • I’m grateful that now after the boys go to sleep I have some time carved out just for me and I don’t have to share those few precious hours (or many times, minutes) with my work projects but I can actually sit down and relax, or at least bring down a load of laundry to fold without wondering if I ought to be doing something else instead.
    • I’m grateful that with the extra money I can justify maybe paying to have someone come clean our house every so often.  I’m not a very good housekeeper, and sometimes cleaning falls to the very bottom of the list (it’s not like it’s going anywhere), but it feels so nice to have a clean house.  This might be one of the things I’m most excited for 🙂

    Such a long list for such a simple thing.  Some of those things though are things that I have prayed long and hard for a solution to make them better.  I would have *never* thought this would be my answer, but it’s been such a blessing and I’m SO grateful.

  • Attitude of Gratitude: 21 November 2012

    Attitude of Gratitude: 21 November 2012

    My family came into town today so that we can go up to Logan this weekend and spend the Thanksgiving holiday with my grandparents.  While my mom was here tonight I coerced her into helping me make pies to take to Eric’s family’s Thanksgiving meal tomorrow.  We decided that even though there will only be 13 people at dinner tomorrow we wanted to make 5 pies – 2 pumpkin, 1 banana cream, 1 chocolate cream and 1 strawberry rhubarb.  Pumpkin is a must for Thanksgiving, my mom had a really awesome recipe for cream pies (and one batch made two pies of your choosing) and strawberry rhubarb is Eric’s favorite.  We’ll have leftovers, but who’s going to be sad about leftover pie?

    As we finished the pies we ran into the difficulty that my fridge was already very full, and now I had 4 pies that would require overnight refrigeration as well.  After a lot of finagling I came up with this:

    After I finished I realized that, while trying to fit everything in was a pain, I had just witnessed a great blessing.  Far from worrying where our next meal might come from or whether there will be food to eat tomorrow, we have so much food in our house that we don’t even have a place for it.  I had to throw out leftovers (ones that were growing fuzzy things on them, I wasn’t just being wasteful) in order to make room for these delicious treats.  Especially after having our tithing settlement on Sunday it made me think of Malachi 3:10

    Bring ye all the tithes into the storehouse, that there may be meat in mine house, and prove me now herewith, saith the Lord of hosts, if I will not open you the windows of heaven, and pour you out a blessing, that there shall not be room enough to receive it.

    Truly we have been blessed beyond measure and I am so grateful for the bounties that we have been given.

  • Attitude of Gratitude: November 9th

    Attitude of Gratitude: November 9th

    I went through this morning and wrote a quick list of all of the things I wanted to post for all the days between the 1st and the 9th.  But I wanted to start by making sure I got today’s post up first and then I can go back and fill in the cracks.

    Today we were all home sick.  Danny got a stomach bug that had him throwing up on Wednesday night.  This made me wary enough that I decided that while I was at the grocery store yesterday I would stock up on Powerade, lemon-lime soda  and grape juice.  Sure enough, last night as Eric was getting ready to come home both of us were feeling the beginning effects of the bug.  Eric was luckily able to make it home – although he considered just crashing on the couches at work because he was feeling iffy about driving back.  Eric was up with it all night and I was only just *really* starting to feel the full blown effects this morning.  So, after a day of being sick, here are the things I’m grateful for –

    • My sweet neighbor who, without asking or being asked, brought us over soup and bread for dinner, along with some sweet rolls for the morning.  She’d just seen that I posted on facebook that we were home sick and she jumped up and decided to do something.  Mind you, this isn’t someone who has nothing else to do, she’s home alone with her three little girls while her husband has been deployed for the last year or so.  I was so touched that she would think of us and go out of her way to do something so kind.  I need to be more like that, not waiting around until someone asks me to do something, but just go out and do it!  The soup was wonderful, just about the perfect thing after a day of being sick, especially when it’s snowy outside.  I live in the most wonderful neighborhood, hands down.
    • My wonderful Eric who, after only just getting to bed himself around 6am, woke up at 7am to take care of Danny while the flu was really beating me up this morning.  Then again this afternoon when I was going through another bad bout.  Even though he wasn’t feeling great either he took care of our boys so I could lay down and play dead  for a few hours.  Again, what a great example to me.
    • Eric’s tablet and old cell phone that kept our boys happily entertained for HOURS today while we weren’t feeling well.
    • Powerade and lemon-lime soda, especially that we had lots on hand.
    • That, despite the crazy wind/hail/snow storm we had last night Danny slept remarkably well.  It would have been very understandable for him to have awoken to all the noise outside but he didn’t, and because he didn’t I got semi-decent rest last night so I wasn’t entirely out of commission today
    • A warm house.  As I listened to the storm raging outside I was so grateful to live in a  house where I didn’t feel a bit of the wind or snow.  Aside from the sound of the wind and the revving up of our heater I could have been completely ignorant of the storm around me.  What a wonderful blessing it is to be so safe from the elements.
    • That so far *knock on wood* Sam hasn’t had this nasty bug.  Here’s hoping that he can be spared from it!  But if nothing else, at least all four of us weren’t down and out at the same time.  Danny first (giving me warning to prepare), Eric and I together (but able to take turns caring for the boys), and Sam possibly not at all!  Even if he does get it though, I’ll be able to give him my full attention and care while he’s sick.
    • Finally – that we’re all feeling better!  Not 100% but the worst of the bug has definitely passed and we’re on the mend.  I’m grateful for strong, healthy bodies that can fight off diseases without being too much the worse for the wear.
  • Gratitudes

    Gratitudes

    Note: This post sat in my drafts folder for over 2 years.  I had originally intended to expand upon each of these items and tell the stories that go with them… but I can’t even remember the stories any more.  So I’m just backdating it, publishing it and calling it good.  Here’s a list of some of the things I was grateful for in November of 2012 🙂

    November 2nd – boys who will play together happily, skills that I can use from home to contribute to my family
    November 4th – old friends, cake, family
    November 5th – new Adobe building! Eric has a good job
    Nov 6th – right to vote, democracy, eric taking danny
    Nov 7th – grateful for food storage, leaders who give us guidance
    Nov 8th – washing machine to take care of clothes, husband to hold danny after puking, snuggling as a family
    Nov 9th – grateful for a warm house, safety from the elements, kids sleeping through windstorm

  • Attitude of Gratitude: November 1st

    Attitude of Gratitude: November 1st

    As November rolls around I see lots of posts on Facebook from my friends who are counting down to Thanksgiving by posting things they are grateful for on their status messages each day.  I’ve always thought this was great but I’d miss a few days at the beginning of the month and then not just jump in where I was.  So once again I’m about a week late to start doing this but I want to start anyways.    I decided I’d rather post these in my blog than just on Facebook to give me a little more space to write my thoughts, post pictures etc.  It also feels a little more permanent than Facebook 🙂  I’m going to start back on the first because I have many things to be grateful for from that day because it was my birthday!  I’ve thought of things I was grateful for each day this month but we’ll see if I manage to get them all posted or if I just start from where I’m at after the first.  Here we go:

    Me as a baby 🙂
    • I’m especially grateful for this article that my hairdresser posted on her Facebook wall.  I spent a few minutes reading it in the morning and it really put my whole day into perspective.  I *love* Elder Holland and this was an excellent talk on the Atonement and what we’re all striving to do and become here on the earth.  And of course, I’m grateful for the Atonement and the opportunity I have to return to live with Heavenly Father some day.  I’m grateful for this understanding in my life.
    • I’m so grateful to have been born!  I’m grateful for parents who loved me and raised me and were willing to make so many sacrifices on my behalf.  I’m grateful for their tireless concern and efforts to help me become the woman I am today.  I’m grateful that after being in labor for over 24 hours my mom endured through to give me life.  I cannot adequately express the gratitude I have for such wonderful parents, it’s one of the greatest blessings afforded to me in my life.
    • I’m grateful for Eric.  He made my day wonderful just by being in it.  He spent the day working from home and took the time to help me get our dishes under control (I’m a bad dishes doer and I get very overwhelmed when the dishes get out of hand, so this was HUGE for me).  He watched Sam for an hour while I napped with Danny (which I’d told him was the one thing I wanted for my birthday – a nap!).  Then he took me to the temple before going out to dinner with me.  It was a wonderful day just being with my family and I’m grateful for the efforts Eric made to make it just a wonderful day.
    • I’m grateful for my mother-in-law who came up to our house after work to watch our boys so that Eric and I could go out for the evening.  I love my little boys very much, but it is sometimes so nice to get away for even a few hours, especially when you know they are in good hands.
    • I’m grateful for the temple and the peace we can feel there and the joy of serving others.
    • I’m grateful for the 75+ friends who took the time out of their day to wish me a happy birthday.  Even if Facebook makes it so easy to do, even those few seconds that people took to click on my name and write a quick “happy birthday!” on my wall mean something to me.

    So thank you to everyone who made it a wonderful birthday!

  • Enos, and the request of a mother

    Enos, and the request of a mother

    Note: I wrote the outline for this back in June, when April’s conference talk was obviously much more on my mind.  However, finishing off this post apparently took a backseat for awhile and I only just re-discovered the draft.  Please accept my apologies for being so delayed in posting this.

    In April’s General Conference President Uchtdorf related a story at the beginning of his talk of a mother who had requested that he speak on a particular subject.  She had two children who were estranged from one another and she wrote to President Uchtdorf  saying that if he would just speak on a particular topic that her children would be reconciled.  President Uchtdorf said that among other things that letter had prompted him as to what to speak about.  He also said before beginning his talk “Dear sister, I pray that the Spirit will touch your children’s hearts.”

    I was so touched that of the multitude of topics he could have chosen to speak on, to a church of millions of people, this good man directed his comments to one particular sister and her two children.  I felt like the request was a bit audacious to feel like your children’s fight warranted the intervention of someone of such standing who doubtless had many other things to do.  However, I was more impressed with President Uchtdorf’s fulfillment of the request, regardless of audacity.

    Tonight we read the book of Enos.  In this single chapter book we read of a man’s prayer for his nation, his enemies and other things.  One of the particular things Enos requests is the preservation of his people’s records.  I couldn’t help but think, what if the only reason we have the Book of Mormon today is that this one man had the audacity to ask the all-powerful, all-seeing, surely busy God to look out for the things he and his people had written?  Surely he could have thought – if the Lord wants our records preserved, he’ll preserve them and I don’t need to ask for it.  But he didn’t.  Rather than just seeking for his own personal forgiveness and things that he could control, he put his faith in God and had the faith that his own requests – however small or insignificant – were being heard by one who has the power to fulfill those requests.

    In the Bible Dictionary we read –

    “Prayer is the act by which the will of the Father and the will of the child are brought into correspondence with each other. The object of prayer is not to change the will of God, but to secure for ourselves and for others blessings that God is already willing to grant, but that are made conditional on our asking for them. Blessings require some work or effort on our part before we can obtain them. Prayer is a form of work, and is an appointed means for obtaining the highest of all blessings.”

    What if Enos had neglected to perform that work and because of that we didn’t have the Book of Mormon today?  Perhaps the simple prayer of this one man have since affected millions of lives.  What if that one woman hadn’t taken the time to ask President Uchtdorf to speak to her children?  Perhaps this wonderful talk, which is so needed in our day, wouldn’t have been given.  Maybe we would have heard more about airplanes, or something else.  I’m sure whatever else President Uchtdorf could have spoken on would have been wonderful, but perhaps not this often quoted, well beloved talk that we were blessed with back in April.

    This made me wonder, what blessings am I being denied simply because I don’t have the faith to ask?  I have a new resolve to strengthen my prayers and pleadings in behalf of those I care about, our nation and our world. I think our prayers have more power and import than we realize and we need to be diligent in using it to benefit the world.

  • I Want to Have Been a Missionary… Then

    I Want to Have Been a Missionary… Then

    So if you were listening to General Conference this morning you heard a most amazing announcement.  *Spoiler alert!  If you haven’t listened to this morning’s session you might want to hear this from the prophet before you hear it from me 🙂 *  They changed the eligible missionary ages for young men from 19 to 18 and for young women from 21 to 19.

    I was stunned when I heard this news.  At first the focus for me was for those young men, what a difference that age change makes for them.  They can now go on their missions straight out of high school instead of having that awkward year between graduating high school and going on a mission where their lives are somewhat on hold while waiting for the next thing.  It made me think of  my little brother who just received his mission call, but if this change had been made sooner he likely would have left sometime this summer instead.  I also thought of a young man that got lost in that year between 18 and 19 and has now made some life choices that have changed his life forever.  I wondered if his life might have been different if he’d had the option to leave a year sooner.

    Then when they announced the age change for the sisters I didn’t really know what to think.  A large part of me was elated for the sisters that will be able to go on a mission.   But I couldn’t help but think, “why couldn’t this change have happened 10 years ago?”

    Let me give you some background on me.  When I was a little girl I lived in a ward that had sister missionaries.  I *loved* those sister missionaries.  They were the coolest people ever in my opinion and I wanted to be just like them.  As I was growing up whenever primary teachers or Sunday school teachers or whoever would ask “Who’s going to serve a mission” my hand would shoot up as one of the first.  I always wanted to serve a full-time mission.

    As I graduated high school all of my guy friends were preparing for missions and I was completely jealous of them.  I’d heard that daughters of mission presidents got an exception that they could serve missions early and I started hoping that my dad would get called as a mission president.  I took mission prep classes in my ward and at BYU, I read books and studied as best I could so I could one day serve a mission.  Everyone told me that I would never make it that far, that I’d be one of those girls who got married my freshman year, but I wanted to serve SO badly.

    At the end of my junior year of college I had the decision to make, in November I would finally be turning 21 and I could finally actually put in my mission papers.  I got my mission papers and filled them all out so that I could be ready.  As I was getting prepared to turn them in I stopped and prayed about my decision.  I can remember what the place looked like where I prayed about this decision, I was looking at a huge grassy field and praying about what I should be doing in the next couple years.  I had a year left of schooling, and after  three years of schooling I’d finally found my niche at BYU, so of course the decision was a bit harder.  But I still wanted to serve a mission.  The answer I received then was that it wasn’t the right time for me to serve a mission and that I needed to wait another year.

    During that next year I met, dated, got engaged to and married my wonderful husband.  I’m glad that I was able to be in the right place at the right time to make the most important and best decision of my life.  I truly think that one of the major reasons, if not the reason, I wasn’t supposed to serve a mission at that time was so that I could be at the right place  at the right time to marry the amazing man that I did and so that we could start our family.

    However, had the opportunity to go been available to me at age 19, as I so desperately wished it could have been at the time, there isn’t a question in my mind that I would have gone.  When I heard today’s change in policy I was stunned for a little while.  Then, as I took my baby upstairs to nurse him, I laid down in my bed and cried.  I feel like my hopes and prayers for that opportunity for mission service were answered… but too late for it to do me any good.  It would be a lie to say that, while I’m ecstatic for the young women who can take advantage of this opportunity, there’s a part of me that cries out, “why couldn’t it have been me?”  I don’t at all regret my decision to forgo a mission in favor of marrying my husband.  Not even a little bit.  Starting a family is the most important thing I believe I will ever do in my life and I am grateful for the opportunity.

    But at 19 my life looked totally different than it did at 21.  At 19, I wasn’t at all ready to settle down and start a family.  I still had things that I wanted to do with my life and experiences to have.  I wanted to explore the world and do lots of things.  A mission was exactly what I wanted to be doing and I would have gone in a heartbeat.  There isn’t a single doubt in my mind that had that option been available to me then that I would have gone and served a mission.

    At 21 though, things start looking different.  At 21 I had to look and realize that most of my guy friends were home from missions, and starting to look at getting married and starting the next part of their lives.  If I left for a year and a half at 21, then I wouldn’t be returning home until I was nearly 23.  Within Mormon culture those are fairly prime marrying years, they’re the years where a young woman is still approximately the same age as the young men who have recently returned from their missions.  At 23 the main pool of eligible young men has dwindled significantly and it’s much more difficult to find the kind of person I would want to be marrying.

    Also, at 19 I was nowhere near finding my niche.  Actually my 19th year was one of the hardest of my entire life and had I been on a mission then that would have changed everything.  I only had a single year of schooling under my belt, no declared major, and nothing that would hold me back from serving the Lord.

    There is a huge pang of jealousy going through me right now.  But at the same time I think it’s important for me to stop and realize that the options that were available for me were good options.  I don’t regret not having served a mission, I got in the experiences that I wanted to before settling down with my family.  I traveled the world with the Young Ambassadors and completed my college degree.  I had lots of time as a single young woman to go and serve in the temple and make good friends and do many good things.  It doesn’t really do me any good to consider how my life would have been different had these options been available to me – because they weren’t available to me.  I believe that I was put where I was and when I was for very good reasons and I am very happy with where the path of my life has led me.  It’s hard to do, and I’d be lying if I were to say that knowing these things intellectually is making the feelings of jealousy and sadness go away completely, but I still think it’s important to remember and I’ll get over it by and by.  Also, I always in the back of my head knew I wouldn’t get to serve a mission as a young woman.  I fought against that feeling HARD.  I was definitely “kicking against the pricks” just like Paul.  The truth is I didn’t need to pray about whether or not I ought to serve a mission just before I turned 21, I had known for certain the day I received my patriarchal blessing that it wasn’t meant to be for me.  The way some things are worded let me know that it wasn’t what I was needed for.  I would be a different person today if that option had been available to me, but I wouldn’t be the person Heavenly Father needed me to be.

    It’s been interesting to think today on the ramifications these changes will have on the youth of the church.  I think that this is going to make a HUGE difference in the way that our young people see a mission.  It makes a mission so much more feasible for young women without asking them to sacrifice opportunities dating and marriage if they want to serve. But if they’re coming home by the time they’re 21 that gets them back still in that prime age for marrying.  I think we are going to find that having younger sister RMs is going to change the dating scene amongst our young adults.  These young women will likely come home much more serious about dating and marriage and will expect the young men to step up.  I think before there were young men who would come back from missions serious minded, but find that the young women they had left behind hadn’t changed their mindset in quite the same way and the result was a lot more non-serious dating for both groups.  I think this change will result in marriage rates increasing among our young adults at an earlier age.

    I think it’s going to make a difference in how the young men prepare when the young women are preparing alongside them.  I can’t help but think that having cute girls at mission prep will help entice more young men to come to the classes 😉  I also think that the young women might be more drawn to those same classes knowing it will be where the eligible, righteous young men are.  I think that having young men and women coming home from missions at quite similar ages and being at the same point in their lives is going to affect how they date and get married.  In the past it seemed like many of the young women were given this big blank slate after high school.  Education, marriage, mission, all of these things were on the table, but not in the same sort of laid out mandated order as they were for the young men.  Now there’s a much more feasible, structured order that the young women have that coincides with the young men.

    Anyways, I’m SO excited for these changes.  Even if they’re too late for me, I think they’re going to make a huge difference in the missionary force for the church and the church membership as a whole.  Now I need to go back and make some adjustments to the FHE lesson I prepared about missionaries a couple weeks back…

  • I Want to Be A Missionary Now FHE

    I Want to Be A Missionary Now FHE

    On Friday my little brother Cody opened up his mission call!  I can’t believe he’s old enough to be going on a mission but I’m very excited for him.  Since missions are obviously a topic that gets discussed a lot around our house right now I wanted to make it the topic of a Family Home Evening lesson for my kids.

    I looked around the internet to see if I could find a lesson that was like what I wanted to do, but nothing quite fit the bill.  What I really wanted to do was discuss how mission calls are made and talk about what missionaries really do.  Since we have really young children this seemed like a good building block to have.  Most of the lessons I saw were about sharing the gospel, which is awesome just not what I wanted to do.  So I decided to make my own.

    I put together a lesson plan but what I really wanted was to have a flannel board story to go along with it (that format works really well for our kiddos).  I searched high and low to find the type of clip art graphics that I wanted but really didn’t come up with anything.  I found one picture that I really liked but nothing that matched it.  So I decided to take the picture I’d found and use it to create my own clip art to fill in the rest.

    (P.S. – I spent a lot of time coming up with the clip art so I feel the need to share the whole story, if you just want the fruits of my labors the lesson plan and graphics links are at the end of the post, feel free to skip the whole story 🙂 )

    This is what I started with:

    Bike Missionaries by Arie Van De Graff

    I decided the missionary on the right would be the easiest to work with since he didn’t have a helmet on and already had hair.  So I cut him out, stole the other missionary’s left arm, took off his backpack and his tag and… 

    Voila!  Now I have a pre-missionary who is ready to meet with his bishop.  Of course, that means that next I’ll need a bishop.  So I doubled that missionary, turned one copy of him to face the other way, added a door in the background and got to work editing one of the copies so that he could look like a different person than the original missionary (a little weird for him to interview himself to go on a mission).  I changed his skin tone a little, got rid of the Mormon wave, smooshed his head, changed his mouth, added a jacket (that was definitely the hardest part), and tried to make them look like they’re shaking hands.  I got pretty far through this process and then realized I had a problem –

    I had accidentally amputated the bishop’s left hand!  Crap.  Eric also pointed out that I was having them shake hands very awkwardly, the Bishop’s hand should be on top instead of the prospective Elder’s.  A few more changes and…

    Tah-dah!  Now he looks like he’s ready to give out mission calls.  This whole process was HARD (I’m not very artistically inclined, if you can’t tell from my Photoshopping efforts).  So I decided to dig a little more for some clip art that might match.  I found the original picture at MormonShare.com and it indicated that it had been submitted by Jenny Smith, but a perusal of Jenny’s site seemed to be a mirror effort of what was on MormonShare.  I had left a comment with Jenny to see if she could help me find more similar clip art, but I wasn’t too hopeful.  Then I noticed that while the image had been *submitted* by Jenny Smith, the artist listed was Arie Van De Graaff.  A quick Googling of that name led me to his website – The Mormon Cartoonist.  Jackpot!  I emailed Brother Van De Graff to check if it was ok if I posted my finished product on my website (it was) and if he had any ideas on where I could find some of the other pieces I was looking for.

    While I waited for a response I went to Google Images and now that I had an artist name for the pictures in question I had a lot more success.  The next thing I wanted to make was a picture of an apostle reviewing the prospective missionary’s papers and issuing a call.  Not an easy bill to fill, mostly I was interested in finding someone sitting in an office chair since that was a piece I wasn’t keen on creating myself.  I found this –

    Which I actually only just realized is not by Arie Van De Graff, but by Kevin Beckstrom, but he mentions Arie on his blog post so it came up in my search.  Anyways, I took the adult trekkie, turned him around to face the computer screen, shaved his head, put him in a suit, gave him a smile, and put the missionary’s information on the computer screen and…

    Tah dah!  Our Trekkie is now an apostle!  The funny thing was I was having a hard time finding a scribble that I could use for the writing on the computer screen.  I didn’t want to have to come up with actual text, and drawing scribble text with a mouse is harder than you might think!  I had to go and find that scribble on someone’s MySpace page, and then I shrunk it and pasted it over and over 😛  Go figure.

    My next step was to make a picture of our missionary receiving his mission call.  This is where I struck gold!  I found this digital coloring book which had almost all the rest of the images that I needed.  Plus, it was illustrated by none other than Brother Van De Graaff himself, so the theme fit perfectly.  Strangely enough the picture for the MTC actually came from the coloring book for The Proclamation on the Family, but it worked.  I put my missionary into all of the pictures and got the rest of my pictures –

    So, if you survived through my long story of how I got all my graphics you definitely deserve to have a copy of this lesson.  I don’t promise that it’s the most amazing and life changing lesson, but I’m excited to do it with my boys next week (obviously I kinda missed getting it done for this week, even though I started on Monday with that intention 😛 )  I think it’s probably good if you have very little boys like I do.  I got some of my ideas from this FHE Lesson at A Year of FHE and I plan on printing out her map as well as the missionary tags to go along with the lesson.  So without further ado –

  • Angry Birds FHE

    Angry Birds FHE

    As I was playing on Pinterest a few months ago I came across an idea for a Family Home Evening lesson using Angry Birds as a way to teach children to control their emotions.  Since I have little children and a smartphone, Angry Birds is obviously something that gets played A LOT in our household and I knew this would be a hit.  I found the lesson on The Home Teacher and her original lesson plan is here.  She has also taken the time to put together some awesome resources, including a follow up post with more birds and lots of printables including posters and workbook pages.  The whole thing is awesome and I was excited to do it for my boys for FHE.

    For Christmas this last year my sister-in-law gave us a flannel board and a bunch of flannel board stories for FHE.  Sam now thinks of FHE as a flannel board story time so I knew the lesson would go best if I were to make the Angry Birds into something that would go on our flannel board.  So I took all of the bird images and put them in a single page format so I could print them onto an iron on transfer.  The lesson that night was a little scattered because I was working off of my memory of what I had read in the blog posts.  As part of a project I’m working on right now I decided to write out a concise, easy-to-use FHE outline that had all the main ideas from The Home Teacher’s blog posts as well as an assigned opening and closing song, a shortened link for an idea to make your own version of an Angry Birds game using paint, cans and a dodgeball, and a treat suggestion.  Basically I wanted to make it so you could print out the outline and have an almost zero-prep FHE lesson.

    Anyways, I finished that off and decided to share the fruits of my labors here.  I’ve included the outline, the single page formatted visuals and the visuals reversed (for iron-on transfer).  If you aren’t using the lesson on a flannel board or some other small format I really suggest The Home Teacher’s posters as they have a lot more detail and are just plain prettier.  I also highly recommend reading through her blog posts on the lesson as they explain her ideas in a lot more detail (my main goal was to make the lesson plan fit on one page front and back so I had to pare it down a lot).

    This has become Sam’s favorite FHE lesson, whenever we pull out the binder he asks us to do the Angry Birds lesson again.  Not just because it’s a fun topic though, he really knows what we have each of the birds representing and names the birds by their lesson names when he’s playing the game too!  I hope you enjoy this as much as we have!

    I just want to say thanks again to Keri at The Home Teacher for all the effort she put into putting this lesson together in the first place, and for the permission to share it again here!